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[She sits. She looks so very frazzled. Her hair is coming loose of it's clips and honestly she just wants to go back to pretending this never happened.]

I just spent two weeks freaking out not knowing what to do with this. And I mean--I keep hearing about people getting hurt or dying. And I think about it like... what if before I had this, what if my mom was hurt, or my sister, or you? And nobody helped, and one of you guys died?

What if you never pushed me out of the way of that car? Or if Marina had let me get stabbed?

Everybody has somebody who cares about them. Not using this... even if I'm scared or it gets me caught, it's not right to be selfish about it.

I told you: Use it when you want to.

[How does he even. He only knows how to comfort friends two years younger than him. He puts an arm around her shoulders to pull her closer and pats her head.]

If you want to use it to help people, then I'm not gonna tell you no. I'm just gonna tell you to be careful. If you want to protect your family with it, it's your power now. Nobody should boss you around about it. If Billy Bob on the street gets hurt and you don't want his girlfriend Mary Jane to lose someone important to her, then that's still your choice.

I'm just saying that if someone says it's your obligation to do it just because you have it even if you don't want to because you can get caught and it's dangerous? Then they can fuck off.

Edited 2014-01-14 06:25 (UTC)

[This is new and part of her is embarrassed by it.]

... The guy who stabbed Marina totally saw me. If no one's knocked down my door yet, I'm probably safe, right?

[pat pat pat.]

Yeah. I think so. If you start to see anyone weird around the place, tell me and I'll come help.

Hey. Thank you. For showing up. I mean--you totally didn't have to but you did. It means a lot.

Haha. Well, they say when you do something dangerous always have a friend with you. It's no problem. Eat your chocolate.

[She eats one omg omg.]

It's not your responsibility, though. You could've just said no. Thanks.

You're welcome. For the record, you're always welcome to call me over.

And you can come over when it's not a minor emergency...

[... That sounds dumb. That implies he'd want to come over.]

I mean. If you want to come over. When I'm not totally freaking out so you can stop thinking I'm a total freak of nature. Like--what I'm saying is my mom won't care if you come over if you want to hang out or something--!